I'm sore

I don't want to be hurt anymore! I'm not your hollaback girl! It really really hurts to be ignored do you people know that! What has happened to me for the last six months may be insignificant to some people, or you may label me as sensitive. But honestly, you won't know how painful it is till you've been in my shoes.

True, I'm a protected person, I don't have enough confidence, and I'm not the funniest or prettiest. But I don't deserve to be treated like that by my 'friends'. Being blatantly ignored is, I can only describe it as insanely, fucking appalling. A stronger person might've just said 'fuck it all' and moved on. But who am I?! I'm HELEN! the girl with too much heart, so I keep loving people. I love and love and love but this time I got hurt really bad. I can't take lonliness, I can't fuck it all. I need people to like me I just do.

I don't even know where this is going. I think I'm just trying to write out my heartache. I eavesdropped and found out that the guy i like likes another girl. I guess from the very beginning I already knew liking him would only hurt me but no, i just HAD to fall for him. Eventually I guess, while liking him I came to terms about the whole impossible thing and was actually ok. But

I'd rather not love

They'll never know how much what they did hurt me.

If you're reading this

I REALLY REALLY LIKE YOU. I MEAN LIKE, LIKE YOU.

p/s: I hope you know who you are

Departure

http://helenting.wordpress.com/

A proper post

stupid dead place.

I'm feeling particularly dead today, and there won't be any fancy shmancy Helen paintings in this post. Not because I don't have any. But because I'm feeling dead.

Dead because of this. Dead because of that. And I reckon, honestly reckon that this will probably turn into another of my pretentious poems if I weren't so, dead.

If I had an accent this will probably be a vlog, but I don't, so suck it up. I'm the kind of person who likes clean boys and ironed clothes . And I'm the kind of person who uses words like epiglottis in essays.

So there you go, a proper post.



p/s: At this point, it just occured to be that no one is interested in what I think, or feel, despite this being my blog and all and I'll be better off posting pictures and the sort



throw me an invisibility cloak and I'll party all night with you

Attempt at humour

Curse-r, get it?

When I take pictures I'd tell myself in my head sexy and mysterious sexy and mysterious over and over again and I always turn out looking like








BROCOLLI GIRL

Of my disappointments in love, life and shoes

Earlier on today I dug my heart out to keep it in this jar because falling for a guy is dumb

Venti not enough

gulp

Invisible girl

This is my drawing of invisible girl. Comments?

Cats, tears and irrational fears

When I grow up,
I wanna live in a place with cobblestones,
And the buildings old like bones.

I'll stay there and buy a bicycle,
From there I'lll buy jam and peanut butter,
And I'll eat with a silver spoon while the birds flutter.

Then I'll sing a lullaby to the cats that live nearby,
And sing and sing till I finally cry,
For we both wish to fly.
Into the cold blue sky

When I grow up.

Dance

I look like a hippo having a seizure when I dance, not pretty

This is my face,
like a maze,
eyes and ears,
sometimes tears,
nose and hair,
I'm not fair,
smiles and frowns,
you can't see from a mile.

Harry Potter

I know some of you are probably going to throw me down the chamber of secrets with moaning myrtle for this but I'm going to say it anyway,

Other than the battle scene being completely cut out and Harry being totally out of character AND the wtf burrow fire. I think the the hbp movie was really really good. I mean that it is way way better than the order of phoenix. The way they filmed it was stunning and brought out the atmosphere of the book. And the little details that were put in (hermione's birds) was sastifying enough. Oh and I absolutely loved Helena's Bellatrix

ok cue body bind me to get to myrtle's toilet. I'm not going willingly

I'm confused

I'm confused why some boys like me. I mean, you wouldn't fall for someone that looks like

this

would you? so then why like me? WHY? (just realised that I had just compared myself to a girl, with a broccoli for a head. I hate broccoli)




what a no life lulzer

What some lefties do

When I was younger, instead of ticking my ticks is this,

I tick them like this

I got told off by my teacher for ticking my right answers wrong

Your toxic tongue slipping on mine

I peeked through the door, not knowing what I'll find. Blood was pounding in my ears and my instincts told me to run..

I ignored my fear, screwed up my courage. Walked in and saw

murder in the house!


I feel like

tomorrow

Life lessons 1

I am not allowed to walk up to some random man who is smoking and say


"fuck off man you're at a kid's party!"
or
"can you go away I don't care if you give yourself cancer but I actually have a LIFE to live"

y'allll

I bet you the mushroom in weiwei's blog is on crack cocaine

Movie poster

trying to be funny, failed epically